Today

Today

Blinking past tears

Getting harder to hide

Something is missing

I no longer can deny

I understand the selfishness

That breaks my heart so

But I’m left with a pain

My life has never known

Yes, I know you were a part

Of God’s much larger plan

But your absence in my days

Is almost more than I can stand

I’ll have moments of peace

Followed by sudden dismay

Praying to God

Please don’t let me hear her name

The silence can be deadly

Like a terminal disease

I keep moving forward

But it’s hard to find relief

You were a blessing in my life

And all others you did touch

I know you have eternal peace

But I still miss you so much

Your life was a constant reminder

To make the most of today

Because as surely as God giveth

He most readily can take away

Not take away, as if to punish

Or payment for our sins

But to replenish His kingdom

With the angel you were within

How wonderful is our Father

Who truly understands

The impact of those eyes

The strength found in your hands

The sweet beauty of your laugh

That ever so bears...on my heart

Yet and still it is these things

Which make it difficult being apart

And yes of course I know

That you are with me always still

It is only your voice I’m missing

Which I know is God’s will

So tonight like nights before

I will fall down to pray

Always letting God know

I submit to His way

And whatever His plan

For my path and for me

Will be all that I want

As I fall to my knees

So while I will always miss you

And your beautiful way

I give thanks for the chance

To say I love you...today

Just A Letter to Me

A Letter To Me

Just a letter to me

To remind me today

To give thanks for the blessings

God has brought my way

Thank you for the first breath

I took this morn

And have ever been thankful

Since the day I was born

Thank you for the sunrise

Or thanks for the chill

Whatever the weather

I submit to your will

Thank you for the love

You have supplied in my days

I cannot tell you how it’s helped

In so many ways

I may be undeserving

Of all you bestow

But I would be remiss

In not telling you so

Thank you for your forgiveness

And your loving way

This is shown in your beauty

Every single day

In a simple rose

Whose scent is so sweet

In a strangers smile

I met on the street

In the young man

Holding open the door

In the sound of a Lark

And so much more

Thank you for giving me

A new chance everyday

To begin life again

In a unique way

And forgive us Father

If we fall short along the way

I ask this of you

Falling to my knees to pray

Remind me again to smile

And shine your divine light

So I can deliver your love

On lives which seem less bright

Give me the strength to go on

And rise up to your call

And bring peace and joy

To your children one and all

Keep showing us always

The path for our souls

As the treasures of your Kingdom

Begin to unfold

And one day soon it will

Begin to become clear

Of the purpose of life

As you bring us near

Whatever the lesson

Whatever the task

Your guidance and love

Is all I shall ask

From the start of my day

Till the end of the night

I am thankful for the wisdom

And keen insight

In closing my letter to myself

A note I need to heed

Love and forgiveness is yours

We just need to believe

Remember

Remember

You met on that beautiful night

Your heart ran away

Promises of “I’ll love you forever’s”

And “I’ll never go away”

Butterflies in your stomach

Desires running so deep

This must be what God wants for me

He satisfies my deepest need

But moments turn to days

Days turned into years

Suddenly everything you wanted

Became your deepest fear

Conversational smiles over breakfast

Turn into barely looking at me

We are no longer in love

But strangers with memories

How did it go wrong?

When did it go awry?

No midday phone calls

And today again I cried

We pass each other every single day

With barely so much as a “hello”

We are dying deep inside

Yet still can’t let each other go

Once a home of life

A dream still untold

But a house of cards

And doors begin to close

Not knowing where to turn

I reach up toward the sky

Crying out in prayer

I don’t understand...please tell me why

There was the worst silence

I ever in my life heard

Not a sound did I experience

Not a single little word

As a tear of desperation fell

When I knew I was alone

I heard a sobering voice

“Tell me what seed you have sown”

You only bring me to your life

When you have had enough

Even though I gave you all the tools

From my garden of divine love

You never mention me in life

Unless your heart starts to break

Do you see how the silence

Can be more than anyone can take

Do you not understand?

All things must come through me

It isn’t about you

Or whatever you think you may need

The love I send to you is a gift

Not something that you are owed

It is the beginning of bigger love

The seed you are supposed to sow

But when you walk through life

As if your love is enough

I’m telling you it is

But only if it’s replenished from above

You may have known love

As beautiful as a rose

But you cannot contain anything

And not allow it to grow

And my child the only growth

I wish you could see

Comes from replenishing it

All must come through me

So rest your weary heart

Remove it from your mind

I will replenish your love

And that of all mankind 
 

Before life gets overwhelming

And you begin to lose your way

Remember the blessings of your life                                        

And fall to your knees to pray